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Talking about mental health

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بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم i would like to share a story about my patient who i first met this year. (I apologised as im unable to remember all the small details, hence the general description on some information) She came for her first appointment in our clinic after being referred by pediatric team in hospital melaka. She brought a baby with her who was still a few months old. the baby was under pediatric for brain malformations but stable. she was carrying the baby on straps. they referred the mother for depression. she introduced herself started telling her stories. She is a single mother, her ex husband left her after they got married. her family also abandoned her for marrying him. She now lives in rented home, in which she was unable to pay for the past few months. She did admitted of past mistakes in which we did not delve into too much during our first interview. However, due to time constraint, she asked to leave early to catch her bus going back to Alor Gajah which last depart a...
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Menyusun

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بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Sudah lebih setahun saya tidak menulis di laman ini.  Konsisten tidak menulis. Dan kali ini saya menulis dalam keadaan yang lebbig berbeza dari sebelum ini. Anak sudah boleh menyebut 30 patat perkataan, lebih kurang. Faham arahan dan permintaan. Memanjat abahnya secara literal dan menjadi 'controller'. Ingin ke dapur mengambil air? Naik kat Abah. Nak mainan, naik kat Abah, Mudah sungguh hidup kau ya Afiyah? Menggunakan kebijakan yang diberi Tuhan untuk 'membuli' Abah.  Dan juga berbeza di mana saya tidak lagi bersama dałam kapał KKM. Setelah lebih 4 tahun bekerja di dalam kerajaan, kini saya bekerja secara 'self employed'. Freelance. Buat sementara waktu ini. Dan saya lebih bersyukur hidup begini. Lebih masa berkualti bersama diri dan keluarga. Lebih masa untuk beribadah, walaupun kadangkala culas juga. Lebih fleksibel dengan cuti (tidak semestinya). Ada pro and cons. Masa kuantiti & kualiti Tetapi masa tidak boleh diukur pada kuantiti...
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Afiyah Khadijah

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بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Bercerita tentang peristiwa besar dalam hidup- walau sebesar mana, pasti akan dilupakan secara sengaja atau tidak.  Maka aku karang disini- harap kekal cukup lama untuk memberi erti kepada anakku dan sesiapa yang ingin mengambil manfaat darinya. … Pada pagi 24 Jun 2021, kami dijadualkan untuk mengambil ujian saringan COVID PCR secara pandu lalu di Hospital Pantai; prosedur standard bagi kemasukan wad. Hospital akan membuat ujian ketika isteri telah hamil mencapai tarikh matang 40 minggu jika masih tiada tanda-tanda bersalin. keputusan diterima dalam masa 72 jam.  Kami terus pulang ke rumah selesai saringan. Setibanya di rumah, isteri saya mula mengalami 'regular contraction' (rahim mengeras secara kerap dan kuat)- antara tanda awal akan bersalin. Isteri tengah menahan sakit sampai tidak mampu berkata-kata, memegang perut. Saya terus membawanya ke hospital-tetapi berhenti di pertengahan jalan.  “Sakit lagi ke?” “Dah kurang” “Yang ba...
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Menulis untuk diri sendiri

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بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Kembali menulis. Walau sepatah cuma.
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Sharing a thought

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بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم It has been exactly 7 months and 14 days since we returned to Malaysia. We realized that it would quite a while before we started HO-ship. And it did. I'm expecting another 3-4 months before putting the medical text into practice. Therefore in the meantime, like many of my colleagues, I looked for jobs. Excluding work as a research assistant (RA), others has salary or commission. These jobs really taught me the different perspectives from different angles. During the last weeks as RA, we spent a few minutes with an ED specialist asking for advice. And this is what she said, "What are you doing here? You should be doing something else" "If I had children your age, he will work in McD, or KFC" "Being a doctor is one thing, but being a human is another thing. You will spent your lifetime as a doctor, so don't worry." "(Some) doctors think they have privilege, they cannot take advices, can't stand being co...
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An interview

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بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم 2 weeks ago I went into a job interview in KL. It was an interview as a PCC or patient consultant care. It was my first interview in my whole life. I took public transport since it would be easier and cheaper overall. Turned out I got lost and arrived 30 minutes late. A bad impression. When the interview started, it was really more of a briefing of what my job would be. Would i not ask (or interrupt) and add my own view, it would be almost like a lecture. After I finished, it felt like a burden lifted from my shoulder. I have the inclination that I might just did it. I do not know. But at least I could tell I have experienced an interview, in case anyone asked. haha. Following up, I was contacted from the same company to be assessed for editing and writing articles. As soon as I received the email, I had to refresh my medical knowledge and refer to the textbook, a long lost friend. I submitted my answer earlier than the deadline. Then I was informed I woul...
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8/40 : Merantau ke Deli - Hamka

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بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Segala puji bagi Allah penguasa dan pemilik sekalian Alam, salam dan salawat atas junjungan Baginda Nabi (SAW) serta keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat RA. Ini adalah buku ke-8 yang aku berjaya habiskan pada tahun 2018. Dengan izin Tuhan, dengan pace sebegini aku boleh mencapai sasaran 40 buku. Dalam keghairahan mengejar kuantiti, yang lebih mustahak adalah pada kualiti pembacaan. Jadi apa yang difahami dan dipelajari kemudian mengubah perspektif, cara berfikir dan tindakan itu lebih baik berbanding membaca 10 buku namun hanya secara surface dan tidak membawa sebarang perubahan yang substantial. 5 pelajaran dari novel ini, mulakan! 1. Kehidupan adalah seperti mendaki dan meluncuri gunung-ganang. Sentiasa bergilir sehinggalah tiba di lapangan datar yang dinamakan kematian. Selepas melalui kesukaran dengan sabar dan susah payah, tiba waktu kesenangan- yang juga ujian, apabila terleka maka akan tersungkur dan bergolek jatuh ke bawah. Hidup ini adalah ujian! Sen...
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